Friday, March 25, 2011

My Savior

In February, I was suffering from Clinical Depression.  It is something I have struggled with for over 12 years now. There are mostly good days but when there are bad days, They are Bad.  I do take Medication but I hate to tell people I have this.  It is something that is misunderstood and even I get frustrated with myself when I can't do what I want to do.  It is just paralyzing some days.
Back to February, I was at a very low point.  I asked Dean for a Blessing.
My dear sweet husband placed his hands on my head, he said that the Savior even suffered as I have suffered, for ME.  I just wept.  Sometimes I feel like I can handle all the problems I have on my own.  That is is something that I can just get through if I just grit my teeth and plow though it or with depression, sleep though it.  
As I have pondered on these words, I have become so humbled.  Christ is my Savior, he took on everything I have suffered.  All that he asks in return is to look to him and he will give me rest.  I need to follow him.  He wants me to learn of him.  In Matthew 11:28-30, he wants me to come onto him and be Yoked to him.  He knows what I have been though.  He suffered all that I have and will ever suffer.    He is MY Savior.  And one day I will wipe his feet with my tears.

1 comment:

mom of fab five said...

Sometimes it is hard to leave our burdens in his hands--he suffered so we don't have too and yet on occasion we try to bear our burdens alone. I hope you are doing better now--
love the post and you!
Leigh Ann